Learning a New System and Battling Self-Doubt: Can I Handle the Pressure?

Hi everyone,

It’s been a while since I last posted, especially since I shared about my scammer boyfriend. Yes, I’ve confirmed that he is indeed a scammer. I looked up his profile picture, and the original owner is Filipino. It seems his picture has been used without his consent on many dating sites.

Anyway, enough about that.

By the way, I’m currently learning a new system at work. I’m kind of unhappy with my progress because I had to switch from a simple workload to many different tasks, and it’s really overwhelming. To be honest, I’m a slow learner—I need to fully understand something before moving on to the next step. As for this new system, there’s a lot I need to learn, especially since it’s an account system. It’s separate, but somehow related to other systems. I believe with a little practice, I can handle it, but at the same time, I’m scared.

I’m scared because this system will link to the government system. Once it’s sent out to suppliers or purchasers, it will be captured by the government, and I can’t afford to make many mistakes or void transactions because it could damage our company’s reputation. I’m stressed about this because I know how clumsy I can be, and I worry that mistakes are more likely to happen. Because of this, my feelings toward this new system are mixed. On one hand, I’m excited to gain new skills, but on the other hand, I’m worried about messing things up.

I’m stuck with this. What should I do?

Part of me wants to push through and prove I can handle it, but the other part is screaming, “What if I fail?” Maybe some of you have been in a similar spot—learning something high-stakes while battling self-doubt. How do you cope?

I know mistakes are part of growth, but the pressure feels heavier when the consequences ripple beyond just me. Maybe I need to:

• To do more training and asking my supervisor until it clicks.
• Break the system down into smaller, manageable parts instead of drowning in the “big picture.”
• Remind myself that everyone starts somewhere, even if my “somewhere” feels wobbly.

Or maybe I just need to vent, haha! If anyone’s navigated something like this, I’d love advice. Or if you’ve ever felt like a slow learner in a fast-paced world, tell me I’m not alone!